The bad patient outcomes never leave you. Even if everything is done perfectly, sometimes things go wrong. I know this with my mind but it still always leads to second-guessing, no matter what. Physicians often carry many of these memories with them for years afterward. Unfortunately, the culture of medicine doesn’t often encourage talking about them with others.
Patients are now much more likely to suggest their own treatment plan. With the endless supply of online medical information and medical apps, many patients read extensively and come armed with well-researched ideas and suggestions. This can be a very good thing, but can also create challenges when the online source isn’t trustworthy or doesn’t take into account the intricacies of the individual patient.
It’s virtually impossible to “turn off” being a doctor. From the perpetually busy work schedule to friends and family members asking medical questions, to being at home but still worrying about patients, being a physician becomes part of your identity. I’m not asking for sympathy as I knew what medicine would entail when I applied to medical school. However, when the job of physician is done well, I think it’s nearly impossible not to leave small pieces of yourself behind along the way.